Back in the States again..!

...and I'm so tired I can't think straight to write! After all this time away tho I thought I'd post something just so y'all would know I'm still here.

Don't know it sticks in my mind with all the news that has happened but I watched the live broadcast of the shuttle doing its balletic backflip so they could take photos; that was amazing - watching this small craft doing that manoevre against the backdrop of a blue planet whizzing past at 5 miles per second. wow. aren't we insignificant in the big scheme of things

Been in Germany...

...on a training course for work. We were staying in a hotel without internet hook up, hence no bloggy-poos all of last week! So I have a lot of catching up to do.

The trip was ok-ish; good food ( wild boar - yummy! ) and VERY good beer. Oh, and the training went ok.

Favourite Trip-Tracks whilst sitting in airport lounge / plane
Jem - Flying High
Damien Rice - Cannonball
The Shins - New Slang / Those to Come
Ian Dury - What A Waste / Reasons to be Cheerful
Moby - Extreme Ways
Evanescence - My Immortal


Favourite Trip-Film whilst sitting in hotel room drinking aforementioned beer:
High Fidelity
Dogma
Bourne Identity
Cheers - Series 1

Didn't want you to worry...

Would have done this sooner, but we've been phoning friends and family who still live on London and commute daily; They are all OK. A major relief to us here ( We moved out of London in '89 )

Still watching news feeds - the efforts have now gone from 'rescue' to 'recovery'; and our emergency services are all doing a superb job.

After all these years of different terrorist organisations bombing soft targets in countries around the world, do the terrorists really think this will finally have an effect on us?

Do they think the two ladies in the picture, or the victims families, are suddenly going to be shaken into empathy with their cause?

'Special K' (Please ignore - Work in Progress!!)

I see you every day, before I wake
And you take my breath away
I'm lost between crying, running and dying
Cos you take my breath away
I act stupid and nonchalant
After you take my breath away
and I can't think or see straight
When you take my breath away

The ache is so real
I think my chest will explode
But these feelings aren't allowed,
now you're mind and body are elsewhere
My body is here, but you have my mind
And I know I'm no longer in yours

The antacids aren't working,
only your love fixes me
but another empty mailbox
reminds me why it burns

Still want you though,
and I know the pain won't go
But you're happy now
so that has to be enough for me

I can still taste you,
I can still smell you
and I can still affect you
but I don't want to scare you away

This misery feels so sweet
but feeling this good
doesn't make it right

I HAVE to go pee!!!

Its been nearly 14 hours of channel flicking to watch the Live 8 concerts from the UK and other countries and it was absolutely brilliant! Kofi Annan and Nelson M made me cry, as well as certain songs that were played; What a way to cap the week I've had -

My problems and issues are so small in comparison to the HUGE issues globally. At least I have more than 3 seconds to do something about them. At least I'm able to do something about them.

And this kind of thing really wakes you up again from the blinkered, narrow life-view that you get when you're 'comfortably numb' from everyday life.

Heres hoping the 8 guys in the 1 room on the 6th day do the right thing...

Do the right thing now- follow the links, sign the declarations, make the difference. They don't want your cash, just your name.

www.live8live.com
www.one.org

Got a bit of a headache...

Extreme Ways

I must confess to a moment of weakness but BEFORE you panic, I have NOT fallen off the 'wagon'.

I've had a REALLY crappy time at work recently, basically my manager is a complete COCK and for some reason has decided to focus his 'Seagull' Management skills on me ( thats where you swoop in, drop loads of shit, then fly off again whilst you clean up the mess ). Normally I can handle this, as he shares his 'wisdom' with 3-4 of us managers, and we all support eachother.

However, even they were suprised by his current relentless 'carpet-bombing' of (de)-motivational techniques on me, and me alone. Again, normally wouldn't bother me, but its been emotionally hard elsewhere recently, so I'm in a depression so low you could slide me under a door.

Then, to cap it all, the person I was close with for a little while hit me across the face with a verbal brick; in one of our now normal conversations ( aren't you proud of me, making it this far and doing the right thing?) she mentions that her boyfriend is taking her to see Katie Melua later in the year for her birthday. a) Boyfriend?? b) 'Our' Song!!

This hit me HARDER than it should have, I know, so I managed to pull myself out of that wreckage of a conversation with most of my dignity intact, took the rest of the day off and sulked about the state of my life generally.

I then posted the David Gray song, because thats how she used to affect me, before you guys helped me to my senses, to see if it would act as a release. It did not. So more sulking and now we're hitting the 'Absolut' in the freezer.

So the following day at work, she finds me and immediately apologises for her insensitivity. (Obviously didn't hide my feelings that well, then!) I apologised for my reaction - I have no right to do that, etc - and after that blip we seem to be back on an even keel.

Now I just have the boss to deal with. And theres me, all out of golf clubs to 'retrain' him with...